Does Your Desire Enslave You

Around a month back, i read this novel - Fountainhead by Ayn Rand. One of her best. Like a friend of mine said - it's a book which makes you think.

What i thought about, was the female protagonist, who has this peculiar philosophy in life. She does not want to find the perfect job, the perfect love, the perfect place. She fears that once she finds it, she will want it so much that it would own her, control her, dictate terms and conditions to her, make her lose her freedom.So the minute she finds a job or project she starts enjoying, she intentionally goofs up and loses it. The minute she finds herself getting attracted to someone to the extent that she starts fighting against the world for him, she goes and marries someone else. She runs away from every thing, person and place that threatens to own her, because of her desire for it. She only returns to it, if ever, when she is sure that the threat no longer exists. That it can no longer control her.Amazing right, or is it wierd or strange.

Well, the behaviour, maybe. But what about the philosophy behind it.Isn't it true that when we get attracted to something in life, we sometimes let it control us. Control the way we think, feel, act, take decisions. Be it a job, a person, an ideal or philosphy or even society for that matter. We give into our desire and lose our freedom. Well that does not turn out to be such a bad thing in the end, for many people. But is there someone who really values their freedom, individuality to the extent of giving up the love and desire of their life, just so that they dont get owned or dictated by it?

I dont think so.

And that's the reason, i feel, such a desire is at times taken away from us by the will of the almighty protagonist in our life. He knows what we don't. He knows that sometimes we want something so badly that it's owning us. Dictating to us. Enslaving our thoughts and actions. And since we don't have the strength to seperate ourselves from it, he does it for us. Leaving us wondering why that never worked out in our life, leaving us blaming God.

Well, if he feels, the threat no longer exists, he will return it to us. And if not, well, thank him for ending the slavery.